First news of this long blog post; I am moving my blog from livejournal to blogspot. I feel like blog spot is more open to people than livejournal which requires people to have livejouranls. Besides, blogspot was more what I was looking for when I started the blog, but being the so out of the loop person that I am, I didn’t know about it. I already set up the blog, and archived it, so it’s no different really from my livejournal but different template and I think more accessible, so I hope you folks like it.

Boy I’ve been dragging my feet like mad lately haven’t I? I love how in my last post I went on and on about how I wanted to do a chapter a day, and then I go and make everyone wait a week, or was it two? I really don’t keep track of the days very well. I had some issues over here the past few weeks. A friend went though family issues and crashed at my place, which I might have mentioned. Company made it harder to write and Timeless is a ‘use it or loose it’ story. When I just sit down and write it, it comes out great. Now and then I’ll have a problem, but over all it will flow and a little hard work can work out any kinks.

But the moment I stop, even for a little while, it will just stop on me. Jenny and I aren’t that much alike, making it harder to get into her head. Nebi and I are very alike, but try as I might, Nebi isn’t this story’s main main character. Every romance story has one main main character. The one that the couple focuses on more, sometimes just a little, sometimes a lot. This one is Jenny, not Nebi, next story I want to do with this pair may be more Nebi focused, I dunno, we’ll see. Point is, that I have to keep writing this story or I won’t write this story.

So I had writer’s block like you wouldn’t believe. The best part of my writer’s block is it often comes with special little temptations. Stuff to throw in my way to tempt me away from my third, third novel, and damnit I don’t want to do that to you guys, not again. I want to finish this book, and the more I thought that I lost the story the more I wanted to just finish it. I like my new ideas a lot, and I have some interesting ideas, (which I will discuss in a few minutes), but I want to finish this story.

This is the first of the three novels I started after Beasts that I feel I can finish. So I forced my self though this chapter and boy am I happy. It was rocky in the beginning and with the huge break between chapters I apologize if things aren’t as smooth as you’re used too. I forgot details and wrote the majority of this chapter, and this blog entry, after midnight when normally I go to bed so I’m more than a little tired. But it’s done and finally we got a little action. I didn’t leave this chapter on a cliff hanger persay, but I bet more than a few of you will feel like you’re hanging. I promise I’ll try to get my next chapter out quicker.

Even with the flow going I really want to finish this novel. I think because I feel like the end is getting closer.

On other business, I have halted editing Beasts for the time being. I think it added to my writer’s block with Timeless. The opposite way the couples handle their relationship makes it hard to swing back and forth between the two. Also, I like the quick get together, lots of shit trying to break them up, more than the long teasing get together. So I grew jealous and resentful of Timeless when I worked on Beasts. So Beast will be delayed. Not that it really affects you good people but, but it does affect me, so here it is. XD

Now, I want to discuss updates. I mentioned over the summer I want to do a chapter a day, and well the summer is coming to a close and I dunno if I’ll do that anyway, but I was thinking of how to get more people to read my work. I thought of a way that might get more people’s attention is update days, or like how webcomics update. That is, one chapter a week, always posting on say Tuesday. (I don’t know if I’d do Tuesdays, but you get what I mean.) What do you people think? If interested post in my comments? I can do a chapter a week and think I already do, but this way I could perhaps build my writing muscles to even two chapters a week. Would you guys like knowing when a chapter was coming? Please let me know.

And finally, New Idea Time! I mentioned earlier I’ve been getting new ideas and I’ve wanted to let you folks know about them. First;

Musician Magic

This is an RP idea that failed but made me want to write it anyway. My male lead came to me in a flash of inspiration and I like him already. The female lead was built a bit on my suggestions and since she was never fleshed out, it will be easy to mold into what I want from her. The basic idea is that an ex-child prodigy turned rocker approaches a girl whose recent car accident turned her from a second rate violinist into a prodigy of herself. He tells her of a level of skill only few can obtain that unlocks a magic in and of itself. He offers to teach her in payment to his old mentor, but soon the pair is dragged between the battle between the two schools of thoughts in this musical magic, and their own desire for each other. Will have cute band mates, and be a bit more adult than others, though still young.

Lover’s Lies

This is another RP idea that I mostly came up with and might want to turn into a novel. I’m not a hundred percent like with the Musician Magic one. In this one a mysterious but popular boy at school starts dating a driven, and slightly unpopular girl at high school. Their relationship is off the beaten track for both of them, but going well, if superficial. All this is changed when the boy’s magical past (I like fantasy), catches up to them, forcing them to chase a magical macguffin over this world and the next to stop a man the boy once served like a son. Along the way, the boy will learn of love and redemption and the girl will learn how to let old wounds heal and how sometimes the best treasures are the ones you already have.

Finally, Non Magic Farm Boys!

This one I might have brought up before, I don’t remember. Gist of the story is simple. A girl fights with her parents over her future, and runs away to her estrange grandfather’s farm. There she finds two brothers who have been working for her grandfather for a few years now, and view her with suspicion over her intentions with the old man she never met and his profitable farm. Eventually the suspicion may bloom into warmer, kinder emotions.

My god this chapter took me much longer than I wanted it too. The summer classes have ended, giving me a few weeks of relaxation before I have to start worrying about fall classes. I decided, in my way, that I should start to do at least a chapter a day, ether writing or editing, since I have more than enough time now. If I want to be a stay at home writer I need to be able to produce that much. It’s really too bad that Timeless temporarily died in my eyes. I kept on returning to this chapter, which should have been fun and easy to write, to only distract myself endlessly with the nothing that the internet provides.

Even when I started to write, as I did yesterday, I grew distracted a million times leading me to finish this chapter today instead of yesterday as I wanted. I’d still like to do a chapter a day, I did last summer, so I know I can. Now those chapters are shorter and poorly written, but it was done. I realized that as a stay at home writer, if you write like you should, you should be able to write three chapters a day, meaning you could finish a thirty page story in 10 days. I want to be able to do that, someday. Three chapters is still a little to much for my writing muscles. I want to do at least a chapter though, I won’t promise I’ll get it done and even if I do, I can’t promise Timeless.

I’m working on editing Beasts too. I finished editing Chapter two, and I think I just completely rewrote most of the scenes. I changed a lot of stuff too. Stuff I’ll need to work back in. I realized I’ll be basically doing that for all the chapters most likely. Asher changed a lot during the course of the story, and while he grew it was mostly changes to his base, while Kaylee evolved with the story, Asher went from my original idea of a casual, happy go lucky kid to the bitter, depressed, angry, clingy man he is now. That’s a pretty big change for the beginning chapters. Since I need to make so many changes I realized I have to go back and outline Beasts as it is, so I can rewrite it but keep it basically on the same track. I enjoy the track it’s on, and realized I actually liked the almost rushed pairing of Asher and Kaylee, it suits them and the story. So right now I’m working on outlining Beasts by reading over the chapter and writing down summaries of the scenes.

It is kind of funny to work on Beasts and Timeless at the same time. Beasts is about a couple who get together too fast and have to fight themselves and the outside world to find the love between them. I mean I read over chapter 5 and Asher is complaining about his lack of sex, mentally of course. We’re at Chapter 10 in Timeless and still the characters are struggling with their own feelings enough to get together but the contrast is nice, and it’s also nice to realize that I can slow the relationship down, if it suits the characters.

Ether way, I should finish outlining today, I hope. (It takes time since I basically have to read over Beasts, but enjoy chapter 10, and I’m going to try to get Chapter 11 up faster, perhaps actually reach my goals of a chapter a day.

Well Chapter 9 is real short. I’m aware that it’s almost 2000 words less than my average but I had a hard time writing it. I kept hitting road blocks and getting distracted. So I kinda just wanted it over with. I feel pretty happy with the end, though Jenny and Nebi’s relationship is giving me trouble. Though, to be fair, this is how I imagined them from the beginning, both wanting the same thing but unable to get it for reasons nether completely understands.

At least someone got to confess during the chapter. Akori isn’t as innocent as Nebi in the realms of emotional desires. Nebi is hard because he understands physical desires, and mental desires, both he gets without needing to ever try, but Jenny is the first person to make him want something emotionally and he doesn’t know how to get it.

Ether way, I have lots of stuff that needs to be done in the next chapter. I just need to decide what I want to do first, I think I have an idea of how I’d like to start. Sorry this entry is short too. I mostly wanted to commented on how I’m aware of how short the chapter is and I feel bad since it didn’t come out quickly or anything, but I’ll get working on Chapter 10 right away

Alright, so I didn’t post after my last chapter. I thought about it when I put it up, but I had nothing to say. I’ve been talking about this chapter, the one I just uploaded, for a long time. I thought it was going to come two chapters ago though. XD Ether way, I finally got to it and I dragged my feet a bit when it came to writing it. I had some problems getting a flow going, and I will admit. Once I get a lot of people in the scene at the same time I start to have problem. Especially with the two brothers where I felt I needed to say their names every other word just so people know who I was talking about. Well, it’s something I’ll work on as I write more, after all I can’t always have only two characters in a scene.

Ether way, I liked the end of the chapter. I love Najib’s little mental monologue. If Najib would make a very good Bond villain, I think he’d love to monologue, and he might do it later. He does love to celebrate before he realizes things. Ether way I was glad for it because this was something I wanted to explain for a while but had no idea when a good time too would be.

Not that anyone is commenting on Najib. Poor Najib, always pushed to the side to Nebi. Yeah, Nebi and Jenny are engaged, and they haven’t even kissed. XD I love doing things like this to my characters. Oh, I’d like to mention that Nebi and Jenny’s dancing around each other is annoying to me too. Last night I was writing and getting very frustrated that it wasn’t in character for ether of them to just kiss the other.

Still, Akori’s crush on Jenny is making Nebi jealous and that will propel him forward. Like it’s why they even danced. Poor Akori, he’s my butt monkey but I love him dearly. He’ll get his happy ending, we all do.

So anyway, I’ve been thinking about the ending more and I admit, I believe we have hit the halfway point. Things are getting clearer for me, I can see the end better and more how I’m going to reach it. I don’t know how much more I have to write (in Beasts I hit chapter 7, got worried I was half way done and it went one for 13 more chapters) but it’s really starting to solidify, and that’s always exciting.

I also have an idea for a non-magical story. It’s something I’ve wanted to do for a while since I’ve been doing a lot of magical emphases stories. I don’t know much about the characters yet, it’s another RP based one, but I don’t know if I want different characters or what yet. I also don’t know when I’m going to write it. Birds obviously has its start date and I don’t know when this story will end but I like the idea and want to save it.
 

Oh geez, my last scene. As one review said; finally! So most of my stories have characters getting attracted right away and being all in love before halfway though the story. That’s cool, in fact I love writing that because I love attacking relationships more than I love stopping them from getting together. I guess because I love watching people gather together during hard times. It’s also because half the problems that will stop people from getting together could be solved if people just fucking talked about it and/or trust each other. Grrr, that bothers me because that’s how I solve my problems. Anyway, rant over. 

Yeah, Timeless is moving slowly though. That’s mostly because Nebi has a very childish view on relationship and Jenny wouldn’t act on her feelings to save her life. She’s far too used to rejection to ‘seek it out’. Anyway I went on and on about how I was looking forward to a scene in chapter 6 and then I don’t even write it! I know. XD I wanted to write about the Heb Sed party but a lot is going to happen there so I wanted to put off starting it for a chapter at least. I planed to start chapter 7 with it but now I feel like I should show some of Jenny preparing for the speech, not to mention someone telling her to wear different clothes. Also there’s a scene I need to do that involves Najib moving on his plot.

Ether way this chapter was a blast to write, though it shows I rushed though it since I made a lot of little mistakes for it. Apparently more than normal because people are really mentioning it. Tomorrow, if I have time I’ll go over it and make edits, or maybe tonight.

Still, this weekend is my birthday weekend so I won’t be starting chapter seven for a few days most likely. I will jump right on it on Monday thought. I have so many plans for the party, which will kick off some more conflicts I have started not to mention push the relationship along. I also want to show Jenny and Nebi after their almost kiss. It will be deliciously awkward.

In a complete heal turn in topic, (I wonder where Nebi got that habit from?), I’m plowing forward in editing Beasts. I’m not much of a theme person but as I go over and think about Beasts I realize this is a romance novel with a message, one I think young girls need and maybe even young men. There’s the basic, don’t-judge-a-book-by-its-cover-message and the be-true-to-yourself messages but also about standing up against pure pressure and following your heart. Trite messages maybe but ones that don’t loose power. I also realize while my story Timeless is about two people fighting against their own flaws and inability to deal with people to be together Beasts is almost the exact opposite.

Beasts is a story about two people who, on the surface, don’t belong together, who do get together and their fight to find what’s beyond the surface both prefer to live. Kaylee is a social climbing whimp at the beginning and Asher clings to his Beast status to stop people from getting close to him. Nether wants to be different from that but both are forced too when they’re together. So I know in this story I need them to get together as soon as I can without rushing it, which makes me happy. I love how Asher and Kaylee are as they struggle in their relationship.

I’m also cutting a lot in the story. I almost eliminated the first chapter. I think I kept maybe one scene? Then I took half a scene from the second chapter, which dropped down almost a full 3000 words. I think I’ll do fine with my ‘Reduce pg number’ plan I have with the story. I like Beasts and I’d like to be a long novel, but I think 400+ 8 by 10 pages is a little much. I don’t even know how many pages that’d be in a regular book.

Ether way I’m trying really hard to keep editing despite my large dislike for the task. If I want to continue to write I’m going to have to edit it so I need to dig in and just do it. I can’t sell my novels if I don’t edit them and I want to sell my stories badly. I think I can.

Oh, on a random note, you know what has gotten a surprising amount of reivews and mentions this week? Mantle of the Moon, I've gotten three readers contacting me about it. One IMed me, (the first person to IM me), and the other two reivewed them. Stuff like that makes me want to do that project but I have so many other on my plate. Birds in November, and Timeless and it's possible sequal. Well, we'll see when I get done with Timeless what should be next. I think Timeless will be a quickish project. It's moving a long well. Beasts was 20 chapter + epilouge and little info about plot change and it's long. So Timeless might not be that long. I don't know yet. I know I don't feel like we hit the halfway point, but it's getting close. *muses*

Well, I had a busy night last night. It’s my birthday at the end of the week, so I’m having a party/sleep over which means my house needs cleaning. I’ve been working on that this week, plus I want to keep the writing up and I even managed to get somewhere with Beasts. Chapter 1 is officially done with Edit 1. Just 20 more chapters to go! Really, this is great. I’m so glad I made myself stick with it. There have been a lot of changes but sadly folks I can’t show you. This edit is for the publishers. I want to offer them something new, so everyone who loves Beasts can get something new when they pick it up. But that’s a long way away. I still need to edit 20 chapters and it’s only taken me what? 8 months to do one? Yeah, don’t need to shoot myself in the foot.

So, Timeless, well I have to say Chapter 5 is easily my most popular, seven review in two days. Damn you guys, you make me feel loved. Only the last two chapters of Beasts got same amount of reviews and I cheated on the second last chapter since I asked if people wanted an epilogue or not. Then of course, more people comment on the last chapter and well, anyway, thanks you guys. The fact that it may get even more and beat Beasts make me happy.

I can’t say for sure when Chapter six will come out. I’d like it to be soon. I’ve been looking forward to this chapter since I first got the idea, about a month before I started to write. I think this is a great place for it too. Anyway, I want to get it out soon but with the party and clean up I can’t promise it will be this week. I want it to be though. I wish it wasn’t so hot, writing is much more annoying when your laptop is making your arms sweat, but so worth it no?

That’s all from me now. Thanks to you all.

I haven’t updated here in a while; a week according to my livejournal bug me to post button. Anyway, that’s actually a good sign. I updated all the time with Birds, explaining problems and why I haven’t updated but I haven’t felt that for here. This is all coming out real easy, not super easy. This is definitely a write-or-die story. Every time I walk away, even for a little while, the story likes to play dead but a few good jolts and it comes back nice and easy.

I’m glad I made this choice. I’m having fun with Timeless like I haven’t had since Written. I really like, and miss, Written. I don’t know when I’ll fix it but I will. Truth is with re-writes and planed sequels, I’m not entirely sure when I’ll write anything. I definitely have a sequel planed for Timeless but I won’t go into that until we’re getting close to finishing that story.

As for Birds, I told you guys I figured out the main flaw and I’ve decided a good time to attempt to write that story is with Nanowrimo. I’m hoping that the community will help me stay positive. Plus it helped with Beasts, which was also a darker story. (Kaylee and Asher never had one moment where one of them wasn’t angsting.)

Also on the Beasts front, I don’t know if I let you guys in on this but while I feel that the story Becoming Beasts is done with, that there’s nothing I can add to their story without feeling cruel to the characters I don’t think I’m done with that universe. Those of you who have read it saw that I started with a mad scientist villain than swapped near the end because it fit the story better, but in my mind that scientist exists in that world. Technically he could even be used for a sequel. (Hmm, children, tng stuff) But currently I’m no where near the writing stage. I just want you guys to be on the look out for that as a possibility. (Way into the future though.)

That’s all the updates on my writing but I have a rant that’s kind of been tugging at my mind. I’m editing Beasts and that always makes you think of publishing. While you write you muse over it but then put it aside to focus on the writing but when you edit that’s all you can really think about it. Trust me if I didn’t want to sell Beasts I’d never edit. It’s boring, but that makes me think of how sellable it is.

I honestly think I’ll get published someday. It’s not a hope or a dream but an honest belief, like how I believe I’ll move out of my mom’s house and graduate college. It’s going to happen, the question is when. I think this way because of what I write and how I write it.

You wouldn’t be reading my work if it wasn’t good, and let’s face it, I tell nice stories but they’re also safe ones. My stories aren’t really pushing the envelope when it comes to young adult/high school/romance stories.

Except in a few choice spots; namely the POV. I read a lot. Kind of expect it right? Anyway, growing up I read more. Middle school I read two or three books at a time, and in high school I slowed down but still consumed them rapidly. So I read a lot of young adult/romance books, and looking back I see a trend.

To understand this trend all you really have to do is look at any Meg Cabot book, but most writers are like this. I’d like to state I don’t dislike Meg Cabot as a writer, and to be honest I don’t think I’m any better, just different style but there’s a certain type of young adult romance female lead. She’s whiny, most of the story is told from her complaining about how much her life sucks, how much she’s a looser, how much the popular crowd doesn’t like her. A popular crowd, I’d like to add, that while she says she doesn’t want to be a part of you can’t help but feel that yes, yes she does. She’s normally unpopular (but to be honest popular characters are hard because then you have to write up friends) and normally has some body issues. Well, most girls do have body issues, and teenagerdom isn’t a really non-whiney time for anyone.

But that doesn’t mean I necessarily want to read it.

Another thing I dislike is the males. I hear this complaint a lot in the current literary debate, Twilight, that Edward has no personality or any real outstanding qualities except maybe stalker, well minius the stalker aspect that’s a lot of teenage romance stories. Because the story is told in first person, and most of the girls are shy and are lusting after men who don’t talk to them you never really get to know them beyond the main character’s opinion which is always “He’s so great, look at what he did, he’s so great.” Because that’s how you are during a crush.

But this is boring. Where’s the three dimensional guys? How can we learn more than he’s hot, and sweet and hot?  Even when I look over Fictionpress it seems like to get a good story with a strong, flawed male lead you normally need to go to a slash fic. Which isn’t for me.

I guess what I’m trying to say is, in a romance story you have two goals when it comes to characters. Make the girl relatable and the guys someone the reader can fall in love with. You can’t love cardboard. I try so hard to get flawed males, they’re more fun. Isn’t it more fun to watch a guy sweat because he really likes his girl but one of his issues is in the way? Or do you just want him to show up at the end with a rose and a happy ending?

For my stories I want the sweat, but that’s just me.

So my first little nibbles on Timeless Bonds are positive. That makes me happy. Nebi didn’t get much of an introduction but this novel is going to start pretty Jenny heavy, I kind of expected that since it needs to be about Jenny getting used to this new strange world. My first scene is also Jenny heavy. Nebi will slowly revel himself. I just love him a lot. He amuses me, and I like to see that Jenny is staying strong against him. My secret fear is that a girl will fail once put next to my male.

But I haven’t gotten THAT far in Timeless Chapter 2 because of homework and the 4^th. I had plans last night and without a license bus makes it take up most of the day. It was fun though and I have to say, 4 hours of sleep did something good I guess because I think I had a break though on Birds.

Yeah, yeah, I know; too little too late right? But not really. I felt really bad about Birds. I felt all this creativity on it, I tried hard to work out the issues and then I sit down to write and it dies on my fingers. Like I said, it’s a darker work and that did have a big effect on me. You notice I talked about it a lot when I wrote it but also there was more than it just being a dark and hard work. I might have been able to go though that if it wasn’t this nagging that bothered me every time I sat down to write.

A little nagging voice spoke up every time I sat down. To be honest, writers are used to this voice. It could be our inner editor or just simple self doubt that tells you everything you write is crap but it wasn’t that negative, or that absolute. It was this little voice that whispered, “It doesn’t make sense. WHY are the characters doing this? Are those reasons really IN character?” I had reasons for them doing it but I can’t help but feel those were MY reasons not theirs. It never felt completely right.

And I think I realized why. Jenny made me realize I like her strength and her weakness. Aisling had many weaknesses and not a lot of strength. While it works with Korbin to have a weaker spirited woman, just because of his own weaknesses but I also realize that even though I could see Korbin and Aisling fall in love I couldn’t see them sticking around each other long enough to do it.

So I started thinking this morning, while I zoned on my friend’s couch, staring at a light. I made a new female character for an RP, and she has this interesting mix of strength and weakness. When I thought of her with Korbin I realized it, just how I wrote Caldur with Tai originally, Korbin needs to be with Clara (my new character) not Aisling. I already have a lot of little changes in my head and I’m planning on outlining it to make sure it I don’t end in the same corner I did before.

Now don’t think this means I’m doing another quit. I want to stick with Timeless, partially because I did all this research and I want to use it. More I like Timeless, Nebi and Jenny. I want to write their snarky romance, I want a happy story again. I really enjoyed Written in the Sand, it just got all tangled up in itself. I will do that again, once I fix it. I’m kind of sad I will most likely have to start over but it will be okay

But because of how early Birds of a Feather ended it won’t be as hard to restart as Written is. When I restart Written it’s a lot of chapters to possibly re-do, not to mention no fix has magically hit me. Birds has mostly fixed. I may work on it now. Not writing most likely, but the pre-writing stuff, or it may wait, but I want you to know that it will live again.

But first I have to get back to Timeless. I’ll definitely update this week but no promises when.

That’s right patient readers, I’m finally writing again. So yesterday I powered out (by which I mean ignored and skimmed) the last hundred or so pages of my story. I still have more stuff to research, but I’m now doing that on a need bases. So my story of love in Ancient Egypt has started. A little warning, one I’ll post with the rest of my story. This won’t be very historically accurate. I’ll twist around what was to suit my story first. Hopefully the characters and stories are enough.

I forgot how many doubts hit you with writing. I get them all the time. This is my first historical story I’ve written if you don’t count the generic medieval stories I wrote as a child. Those don’t really count because they were my own world and I didn’t really research. Also, they were crap. XD Ah youth.

Anyway, it’s a good start. I had some worries with my main female being a bit passive, which won’t work with my main male but she isn’t. That makes me happy. I also, as I mentioned before, outline a good portion of the story. So I can’t get tripped up and have no where to go. I’m going to try to keep the romance a slower pace in this one since that tripped me up with Written.

Well, that’s all I really have to say. I may have images of Nebi and Jenny up soon, but I should have my story up sometime today. I may even start on chapter 2. I hope you all like it and thank you for sticking with me.

I know I haven’t been around much, and I’ve never taken this long to start a story before but bear with me. I got a big book (as my title states, 500 pgs) basically everything I need to know about Ancient Egypt, only you know, glossed over. I am officially 300 pgs in and I have to admit, despite all the time it takes to do this I’m really glad I am. I’m getting a LOT of ideas, which I’m mapping out. Despite my love of by fly writing I’m trying to outline some of this story to stop me from ditching it again. I can see how it all plays out and so I’m not that worried.

I will admit: I don’t like that I quit my last two stories. I don’t like that I left you guys, my readers, my reason for writing, hanging. I don’t write for myself. I could do this without so much work, and it’d be great, but it’d never have to leave my head. Every idea you ever had is amazing in your head, because there’s no one to point out flaws. When I write, I write for you, people who read my words and enjoy them. With out you I would have never finished any of my stories. So…I guess I’m just trying to say thanks and I hope you stick with me.

Back to the reading, I allotted myself 20 pgs a day which according to my calculations would take me 25 days. But when the 14 day mark hit I said “Fuck it.” bumped the number up to 40 and said “Whoo, 7 days.” Then the last section of the first half was about how Egypt accepted Christianity, the Jews and their religion and of course the now dominate religion; which, while interesting, wouldn’t be needed for my story. So I skipped it happily. (I’ve been doing a lot of reading) I decided I’d do my extra twenty of the new section and I’m not entirely sure how I did it but I got from 220 to 300 today. So whoo! So I have about 5 but I’m going to try to bump it down to 4 so I can start writing on Friday. (Maybe I’ll be lucky and finish the first chapter, but no promises!)

Oh and I titled my work. It’s now called Timeless Bonds. I like it. You may notice I like kind of short titles. Moonlight Gifts, Becoming Beasts and Timeless Bonds all being two words. Mantle of the Moon, Written in the Sand and Birds of a Feather being my longer titles. I like phrases and kind of sentences more than single words, but still rather short and punchy. I dunno, I just like titles.

Anyway, speaking of Beasts, I have to admit I’ve been failing on that front and haven’t done ANY editing in a while. I can’t help it. I just dislike how slow it is. I have come up with a new system of editing a chapter on paper then going to the computer to make the changes. I think that will let me stay more interested and it’s more of a nibble. When it takes forever to edit on page and you have over 400 it’s really disheartening.

Anyway, that’s all the updates I have. I hope everyone is having a nice summer vacation and I hope to be updating soon.

So, according to the Livejournal homepage, it’s been a week since I last posted and I feel like you guys deserve an update. I spent the majority of the week taking a break from writing. I met some friends, had a little fun and just separated myself from it. With the space I looked back on my writing and realized that Birds was dead. I want to apologize, but at the same time I feel like I shouldn’t. The truth is that Birds just died. Some of it was fate comatizing my laptop and some of it was my own laziness (it was hard to write, I’ll admit that made me less willing) but in the end I think the main reason is that Birds is a darker story. Beasts, for all its depressing nature, had this strain of hope. Birds won’t have that, and with my life as it is there’s no way I can keep up with it. So for now Birds is going into my mental drawer with Written and Mantle. Someday I’ll take it out and fix it, some happier day.

But I’m not stopping writing. I’m currently studying ancient Egypt for my time travel story. (See my older posts to see what I’m talking about.) I went book shopping and found this really great Egypt book on a great sale, 10 bucks, so I had to buy it. I decided I’m going to read it cover to cover and then after that start writing. It won’t be very ‘accurate’ but then again who really cares? This is for fun, your and mine enjoyment. The story will be more upbeat and more of a snarky head butting romance. Which I think is what I need. There’s lots of drama, both internal and external, to stop it from ending up like Written and should be more upbeat than Birds. So here’s hopping right?

Yeah, so I haven't done anything in weeks. Has it been a month? I would believe it. *rubs her forehead* Alright, so this is finals week but really I'm not that stressed. The real problem is last monday my laptop fell into a coma. By which I mean I pulled out the power cord plug to bring my laptop to the printer and aparently snapped something vital so my power cord no longer connects to the laptop but instead is merely a decortive strand of black. So I took my laptop to Best buy where it's still under the one year warentee. That's the good news. The bad news is that it will take 2-5 weeks for repair.

Fun.

So they took my laptop, and they took birds with it. I forgot to back it up (I know, brilliant) so now the chapter I was working on is gone and there is a very large chance they'll wipe my drive because...why not? I don't trust them to leave my stuff alone. Of course, just for fun, there's an equally large chance (guess it's 50/50 then huh?) that they WON'T wipe my harddrive which means I'll get Birds back. *rubs forehead* Anyway, all this is just making me think, there's something wrong with Birds. My readers from Beasts and Written know I don't take this long to write. I even got an e-mail once asking me how I updated so often. *sigh* It matches the e-mail i got a few weeks ago asking why I don't update anymore.

So I think I need to change something and maybe that means writing projects. I have made it clear this is a hard time in my personal life but to be honest it always has been, since I started posting to Fiction Press, but Birds is very dark, very serious which isn't bad on it's own. The thing is that I'm editing Beasts (God I HATE editting), which is also dark and serious. It's making me wonder if I should try a lighter writing project. That makes me want to return to Written (rewriting it and working out the kinks that made me stop) but at the same time I don't really want to drop Birds. I don't know, right now I'm trying to 'fix' what's wrong or at least find why this is so hard so I have a good enough reason to drop it. Right now I just feel whiny dropping it.

On other writing fronts, those who read my entire blog might remember Eygptian Time Travel Fun Time! from the list of my writing ideas. You may also remember the fatal flaw of that which is I need to study to write it properly. Well I got two books on Ancient Eygpt, one fictional and one non-fiction, that will help. I think once I finnish those I can get the rest from my school website's database. I hope. The hard part is what I want to know, not about wars or what the culture did at certian points but how they lived, day to day, so I can write it. But that's why I got the fiction book, if I can see how the other writes it it could help.

I always forget how good a writing rush feels. Writer’s block sucks, it clings to you, nibbles at your self-confidence and makes every word a pain to write. You never know what starts writer’s block but you never know what will crumble it. Today I couldn’t say when the awkward interaction between Aisling and Korbin smoothed. I couldn’t say when I suddenly started connecting to my heroine better. I couldn’t say when it just started to flow again.

But god it felt great.

I hate the wait between chapters as much as you do, and this story has been a pain because of its slow space. Part of that is my fault, I’ve let laziness and depression steal me away from the rush for too long. I can’t even promise it won’t happen again. I’m still lazy and still depressed, but right now I’m on a writing high and I can’t wait for another hit. I can promise you that I won’t give up on this story. No matter how much I want too at times, as long as I feel this story is actually moving down a path to the end I will continue.

I quit on Writing, and that isn’t like me, but I didn’t do that just because this idea felt all great and amazing (stupid story changing its feel as soon as I start writing). I did it because Kit and Caldur lacked enough drama. I was doing great to the middle but really the story needed a pause and I didn’t have enough to keep it going. I think I rushed the relationship too much. Like I stated before, I have that kind of problem.

With Asher and Kaylee it worked, because they had so much drama when they were together. I also think that with Aisling and Korbin it will work. I certainly know more about them as they push back and forth. Asher and Kaylee were like a therapy session with sex, Kit and Caldur are two lonely souls meeting their destiny, and Aisling and Korbin are a game of tug of war. I think it’s pretty clear in this chapter and will become more clear down the road.

I already have a few scenes planned in my mind. Poor Phoenix needs to hear about Aisling’s problems and Korbin needs to explain his weird behavior. Plus I’m dying to introduce another side character, actually two but I don’t know if the second will come in the scene I have planed. *giggles evilly* But I bet I got you excited.

Anyway, I hope Chapter 4 comes out sooner than chapter 3 and hope this story just gets easier to write. I’m happier when I’m writing.

Oh, and I also started editing Beasts again. (I paused for a few days) I read three chapters today and am officially over half way done with reading it over. Then I have to edit it, then I have to write the changes out. XD God the road just seems longer with every milestone, but I shall celebrate the milestones anyway. I haven’t been in contact with the girl who agreed to help me edit, which is slightly sad. Also I have another friend who wanted to edit who I haven’t seen in a while. I also haven’t talked to my high school friend/editor since a few weeks ago. Technically we’re supposed to go out. I was going to see how she felt about editing. I need editors for Beasts, so if you’re interested please let me know, ether here in the comments or though one of the contact options on my profile. If you do want to edit, please be good at grammar (my weak point) and have experience with romance novels/stories.

Also, if you want to just talk, feel free to friend me on Facebook, but if you do, add a little note. I’m hesitant about adding people I don’t know, so just let me know where you’re from and I’d be glad to add you.

Okay, that’s really all I have to say, and now I’m very tired, so I’m heading to bed. I hope you enjoy chapter 3 and this post.

About. Damn. Time. No? Alright, well it has been a long time since I waited that long between updates and I didn't like. I really hated it because I had lots of time to write but ether no the drive or was dealing with writer's block. I wish the chapter was super long to make up for it but it was actually a tiny bit shorter than the one before it. Oh well, I can only hope to get Chapter 3 up faster (won't be that hard). I'm actually kind of happy with the chapter, as happy as I can be. I like the ending of it. Then again I find Korbin and Aisling amusing together. Though Phoenix and Aisling is fun too. I like all my main characters. I'm not entirely sure what's happening next but I'll brain storm tonight when I'm going to sleep and tomorrow in class.

On a different front, I started editing Becoming Beasts. That's my second novel, and my current best (but really that's not that hard) in my mind. Ether way. I already knocked out a few pages, and will continue to work on it in my spare time. I love using my big red pen. I'm already happy with my new editing system. I focus on style so it's not so negative. I also started talking with my old friend who edited my work in high school. So maybe I can get her to edit Beasts. She's great at the stuff I'm bad at and she likes my work. I'll probably offer to edit some of her work in return.

I've never really edited a novel before (someone else’s I mean), but if anyone wants me too feel free to contact me. I might not and I could very well be slow, but I could try. Mind you, I'm not good at grammar, and technicals of writing. I did edit my first novel and found that was a distressing event, but I'm already working on fixing that. I've had discussions with undeadbovine/ravenclawH7/Morianna/Astrid (I'm just going to call her Astrid from now on), who I discuss most of my writing’s with. We worked on some of Ara's problems, in the fact that she lacks them. I always wanted her to be this strong person with a broken base, but in the end I just made her completely whole. That does not make for exciting writing. Plus some stuff about her life just didn't resonate well with me. I wanted her mom to be busy but she was too attentive so it struck wrong that Ara could be as free as she was. So I think I'm going to greatly change her mother. I never really liked her anyway. I also changed Maverick's mother. Most minor characters will change greatly, or be nixed all together. Maverick and Luke will stay the same.

I also got a book on writing romance novels, which I think I mentioned before. Yeah, I did, well I still recommend you get it. I’m almost done with it (starting on reading the editing chapter hence my beginning edits) and I will definitely comb over it again as I edit. With this book, I’m going to look over Written and reboot that. Don’t worry, Kit and Caldur will stay the same but their relationship moved just too fast and part of that was my fault. I wanted them together so I just made them go. Ether way, when I’m done with Birds I’ll redo Written and then I’ll redo Mantle. Lots of rewrites no. XD I don’t know when I’ll do my Ancient Egypt idea, but I know I want too someday. Anyway, no point looking so far in the future.

Chapter 3 of Birds is today. I’ll try my best to get that up faster. I’m eager to get this story going. I really hate beginnings, middles are so much nicer.
 

Okay, this is bad. This will be a short post because I have a driving lesson in an hour and I have things I need to do but I need to post this. Since I started writing I tend to start one project, finish it (or abandon it), and then move on to the next. This is the first time that an idea has demanded to be written before I’m done with an old one but it’s happened. If you see my previous post, you’ll see the idea for the twin story. I like the idea a lot but I always planed on finishing Written first. I love Kit and Caldur, and I even really enjoy their story.

Or I did. Right now, it’s really annoying to just deal with it at all. I sit down wishing I was already done, and the chapters are getting shorter and shorter. That also annoys me. I prefer to have an average of 6,000 words per chapter but now I have to struggle for 5000. I have to say these must be signs. I think I may have to put Written on hiatus. I’m sorry to all the fans. I really am, but you won’t get a good story if I don’t enjoy the writing anymore. Don’t think this hiatus will never end, it isn’t on hiatus because I don’t want to finish it, or because my fans don’t want it, but because I just need a break from it. Maybe when I start on my next idea I’ll jump ship again, I don’t know. I don’t like this. I want to finish this story before I start a new one but I just don’t like it.

So I’m going to start on my twin story (which needs a title), and I hope you like it just as much. I promise I’ll finish Kit and Caldur’s story one day, hopefully soon, but for now I need to give its break.

So it’s been a little while, both for updates and for an entry. My last two chapters went up so fast and now number nine is being a bitch. Mostly I feel a little stuck story wise and my imagination, instead of helping me with the story I’m working on now is like ‘I have more ideas! You should write them.’ I have debated just starting up a new story, since I have so many, but I think I should just relax and focus on the story I have. I’m pretty sure if I stop Written now I won’t start back up, plus it seems unfair to court a new fan base and make both groups of people wait longer as I decide which story I’m in the mood for today. No, it’s better for me to just focus on Written and be done with it.

But what about my ideas? I don’t want to loose them, so I’m going to write them down here, in no particular order.

Mantle of the Moon

What? This has already been written, a fan might say, well true but I need to rewrite it. Ara and Maverick together have no problems, so I need to give them issues! I’m probably going to really change Ara around, she bores me now. I meant for her to be like Kit but with this great need to be the best, but nether of those traits really came though when I wrote her, so I need to alter her around.

Ancient Egypt Time Travel Fun Time!

Okay, so you can tell this hasn’t really been named but it’s an idea I got from an RP. (Most of my ideas come from RP with my friend undeadbovine/ravenclawH7/Morianna/Astrid) In this idea, an ancient Egyptian prince meets a time traveler from our time. I loved my prince character, Nebi, who was so flawed and yet, so great. I have so much fun when I write him and he’s just to die for. Also, he’s my first black character. As a Hispanic raised by whites most of my characters are white with some girls being Hispanic (I love the shade of skin dark Hispanics have). Still, Nebi = awesome. Main problem is that Nebi also = lots of research. I know very little about ancient Egypt and would need to study up on it since the majority of the story takes place there. Good news was that it’d most likely spawn a sequel. Mostly I just need to research before this story. I’d love to take just an ancient Egypt history class, since that would force me to actually study. (I suck at self study)

Attack of the Magic Twins

This will most likely be my next novel, as it’s strongest in my head and requires no retooling or research. This is also currently not named and based off an RP with my aforementioned friend. This will change a lot from our RP though. In this modern fantasy novel, magic is hidden from day to day life. People with magic tend to live in the ‘Magic Quarter’ of cities and join together in almost mafia like gangs. These gangs fight for power with Fights. (All my names may get better when I sit down to write the real novel.) The Fights are like street fighting meets cage wrestling match. It’s less regulated and death is possible/acceptable but most people don’t die. The best Fighter in currently unnamed city is Korbin Trudu (last name will change). Magic in this world is based on Themes. People have all sorts of different abilities as long as it goes along with a theme, which can be as useful as Destruction and as harmless as Bunnies. Some are really broad, others really specific. Korbin is partially the best Fighter because he has two Themes, chaos and emotion; the only other person to have two themes is his estranged identical twin brother Phoenix. (Roll with it.) Thing is that Phoenix doesn’t really have good powers, his themes are control and civility. So while control is pretty kick ass his need to be polite stops him from being too powerful. The twins are brought together again by a girl on the run with the theme of Dream named Aisling (ASH-ling). As I write this I realize it’s really similar to Mantle but bleh, when it’s written out it will be way different, way darker. This will most likely be rated M, also these people will be older than my so far average 16/18 characters. Ether way, I think it will be a lot of fun to explore the darker sides.

Those are my only really set down ideas. My twin idea has been pushing really hard to get written but I know I need to put it to the side. Thankfully, because I want to write it so bad it makes me eager to continue working on Written. I finally got an idea for where to go next so I’ll work on that, and hopefully will have Chapter 9 up soon.